I'm back...

I have to admit I have been avoiding you all after our last negative result. I didn't want to think about it anymore, and didn't want to bring anyone else down... But we have been continuing behind the scenes, laying low and not getting our hopes up.. We had our egg retrieval during the week, which was a couple of days early due to hyper stimulation. My minds goes off thinking...ooooo that often means a positive!... STOP IT shut up stop thinking like that. This is me talking to myself..just take the information being passed to you and do not think yes it's good no its bad..just SHUT UP.. We did retrieve 24 eggs which is sounding more positive...STOP! We had organized two surrogates however last minutes complications meant a transfer to only one surrogate.. The lovely Dr. is going to let us know of our options...however another two week wait has begun LOVE IT So maybe this time...? STOP STOP STOP IT!

I'm old and techno challenged...

Bare with me, I'm old and still learning how to add photos to my blog whilst on my iPad! The photo of my fur kids in last post was supposed to have attached text, anyway maybe next time I'll get it together! "There's no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy (dogs) licking your face!" Heres my fur kids, always attentive.

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photo.JPG, a photo by Gcfami on Flickr.

Scraping it together...cycle 2

That's definitely the difference in this cycle compared to cycle one...cycle one was exciting and new. This could be the answer we thought, this could be the answer to us ending our current life of endless ivf cycles, endlessly waiting to complete our family...endlessly endlessly waiting waiting.... With the failure of cycle one, came that feeling... Here we go again. We are still on that endless infertility cycle. (I know I'm talking to the right crowd about this). This cycle, cycle 2, we are scraping it all together. The money, and our courage. Can we really go through the disappointment again? Well, I couldn't stand it, I had to start organizing another cycle. M has serious concerns, and is still not ready to go on, but I can't wait. We have been doing this for too long now to give up... So, brace yourself, and hang on cause here we go again.. Money transferred today, mid June our lovely donor starts on those emotion bending drugs (good luck I know how you are feeling!) for an end of June egg pick up. Strap yourselves in, cause we have/are. Wish us luck